Sharing

I go to CCF prayer meeting twice a week. I remember I used to go to prayer meeting everyday when I was a student. I enjoyed the gossip at beginning; later on, I sensed the importance of prayer until now. It feels like yesterday I was one of the students. Now I have three children. Being back at my spiritual birthplace. It just feels so comfortable. I learned and equipped myself during my college year. I am continue to learn and grow right now.

I think I get the idea of keep improving myself from my father. My father teaches me so many important life lessons. I take one class about family and marriage counseling and need make a family genogram. It is about 3 generations of my family background. I found something very interesting. I learn that my father never meet my grandfather until I was born. It is hard to believe without a father figure in my father’s life. He still becomes a great Dad. My grandfather and my uncle have bad temper. My father witnesses my uncle and neighbors physically abusive toward women. My father thinks it is wrong. He decided he would not follow their bad example.

When I analysis my family background I was worry that the bad temper runs in the family. I might get it. I do feel I get angry easily after I have my children. My father’s sharing reminds me that it is my choice to act angrily or gentle. My decision is I want learn to be gentle with God’s help. My father can control his temper by himself. I have more chance to success with God’s help.

Going back to school and find out so many things about my family, and myself it is somewhat painful. I think I need to deal and struggle with my own issue in oder to guide others to deal with their issues.