Today I thank God for my children for the first time of my life. I struggle 10 years to raise them. Today I realize that without them I will not be so close to God. Without them, I do not need to fast two meals per week, meditate and pray many times each day, and I might not need God’s help to deal with my life.

Yes, three children push me to my limit of love, patient and kindness. I am mad, angry and frustrate whenever I felt tired. Yet I pray and pray, trying to get close to God so I will have more love and patient toward my children. I finically realize that I benefit from the struggles. I am a different person.

Hershey Park

After I took three rides with my sons in Hershey Park, I felt dizzy and want to throw up. I decided to give up the idea to try everything and show my children how brave their Mom was.

I still remembered that I rode a roller coaster in Great adventure a few years ago. I was scare and prayed so many times during the ride. I felt I would drop off from sky and be died any minute. After that ride, I still wanted to challenge myself to try different rides even though I never enjoy it. I was try to prove that I was brave.

God gave me different perspective while I was resting in Hershey Park. I need to accept who I am. I am not a person who enjoys physical excitement. Then let it be. I do not need to push myself to take all those rides that make me scare and sick.

I was glad my children enjoy and excited about all the rides. I enjoyed the shows. By the end of the day, I had to say that I rather fast whole day and spent time with God than in Hershey Park.

Thanks God for helping me to understand myself a little bite more. I realize that the most important thing above all is that my relationship with God. Other things are not so important.