dark spot

The first day of my class, my professor say something very interesting. She warned all of us that we will find and deal with our dark spot(sin) before we become a counselor.
She was right. I started to find more and more dark spots.

I found one last night. It is called self-center. Since Danny is going to fly to Hong Kong next Wednesday, I form an emergency plan for myself. My plan is I will stay with my parents on Friday and Saturday night in Chinatown apartment. My sister will help me to take care the children on Saturday. I felt that when I need help. My parents and sister should drop everything and help me out.

God told me that the way of my thinking is self-center. When I think about it, it always my need come first. I guess it relate to the way my parents spoil me. Both of my parents are over 70 years old. They still treat my like I am a child. On Saturday night, they would call me and ask me what kind of fruit I want or what dish I want to eat. They will prepare it and I can pick up on Sunday. It is feel good but is it suppose the other way around.

I always like to find my dark spot. When I find it, I will deal with it. I won't allow the dark spot live too long in my life. With God's help, I have 100% overcome rate. I will become a better Christian. It makes my life interesting.

When I see brothers and sisters try to come to Sunday school and service on time, It give me encouragment that we are all try to change for better. When we are trying, our church will be different.